a few more....
24 March 2008
almost time.
it is currently 934 am. we just received our call from the agency! they should arrive between 11 and 1130! as soon as the phone rang both of our stomachs DROPPED! wow. jilli, the pins and needles are starting!!!!
23 March 2008
WE'RE HERE!!!
we arrived about an hour and a half ago. we are unpacked and organized (i think). exhausted. hungry. happy to be here. ready for stella! we should here from our facilitator tomorrow morning around 9 am and hopefully receive her around 10am. more tomorrow.
22 March 2008
locked & loaded.
yep. we are ready. as ready as we can possibly be.
we left springfield this morning around 1030am and spent the day at the Nelson Atkins Museum with friends from college. They also just got engaged recently (CONGRATULATIONS AGAIN GREG & AUDREY!), so it was fun to be celebrating all together. After the museum we went to dinner and enjoyed catching up.
we are now in our hotel in KC for the night, although it's going to be a short night. our flight leaves in the morning at 750am so we shall be rising bright & early. for those of you who know us are probably laughing really hard right about now at the thought of US actually being UP early enough to get ANYWHERE by 750am. but to be honest, we have been waiting SO freaking long for this to happen, i'm pretty sure we can handle it.
this is really happening. and we totally can't believe it.
next post from guatemala!
we left springfield this morning around 1030am and spent the day at the Nelson Atkins Museum with friends from college. They also just got engaged recently (CONGRATULATIONS AGAIN GREG & AUDREY!), so it was fun to be celebrating all together. After the museum we went to dinner and enjoyed catching up.
we are now in our hotel in KC for the night, although it's going to be a short night. our flight leaves in the morning at 750am so we shall be rising bright & early. for those of you who know us are probably laughing really hard right about now at the thought of US actually being UP early enough to get ANYWHERE by 750am. but to be honest, we have been waiting SO freaking long for this to happen, i'm pretty sure we can handle it.
this is really happening. and we totally can't believe it.
next post from guatemala!
21 March 2008
almost time.
have we packed yet? no.
yes, i think we are crazy too. we have dinner plans tonight with friends then we go home and will probably be up ALL night packing. we leave tomorrow morning to drive to KC. we are spending the day with friends from college who live outside KC going to a museum and then to dinner. then, we shall rise bright & early for our flight to GC.
it's starting to bother me that this all still doesn't feel real. i'm hoping that once i have work under control (by the end of today) and can officially leave the office and go home that it will start to feel real. we shall see, in a few hours!
stella, we love you oh so very much and can't wait to be with you forever! there are SOOOO many people here who love you and can't wait to meet you! we will be there in a few days!
yes, i think we are crazy too. we have dinner plans tonight with friends then we go home and will probably be up ALL night packing. we leave tomorrow morning to drive to KC. we are spending the day with friends from college who live outside KC going to a museum and then to dinner. then, we shall rise bright & early for our flight to GC.
it's starting to bother me that this all still doesn't feel real. i'm hoping that once i have work under control (by the end of today) and can officially leave the office and go home that it will start to feel real. we shall see, in a few hours!
stella, we love you oh so very much and can't wait to be with you forever! there are SOOOO many people here who love you and can't wait to meet you! we will be there in a few days!
18 March 2008
lists.
so i am sitting here this evening make my THOUSANDTH list for this trip. how does one make a list for a trip to meet & pick up the child they have been hoping and praying would become a reality? i have no idea. which might explain why i have so freaking many of them. whatever. i think making the lists is keeping me sane right now. so i'll just pretend they really do make sense.
i was reading some other blogs tonight. some of them for people still stuck either IN pgn or in limbo trying to GET IN pgn. my heart is so heavy for you right now. i go back and forth between being so happy to be out of that position and feeling completely guilty for being out of that position. i know all of our situations are different. some of us have tried for YEARS to have children. some of us have biological children. the circumstances don't actually mean all that much. what matters is that each of us have a child in Guatemala (or some other country) that we are aching to love . . . aching to bring home. please know that i am thinking of you. that i hope one day we meet with our guatetots. that i remember the aching. that there is still a part of me that does not believe i am really leaving to get my daughter.
i have tried so hard to be positive throughout this process. but i wasn't most of the time. i can put a brave face forward, but i have been in some very dark places over the past 4 years. do i believe those dark days will end once i have Stella home? no. i know i still have lots of work to do. but just for a little while i am going to allow myself to be blissfully and truly happy.
i was reading some other blogs tonight. some of them for people still stuck either IN pgn or in limbo trying to GET IN pgn. my heart is so heavy for you right now. i go back and forth between being so happy to be out of that position and feeling completely guilty for being out of that position. i know all of our situations are different. some of us have tried for YEARS to have children. some of us have biological children. the circumstances don't actually mean all that much. what matters is that each of us have a child in Guatemala (or some other country) that we are aching to love . . . aching to bring home. please know that i am thinking of you. that i hope one day we meet with our guatetots. that i remember the aching. that there is still a part of me that does not believe i am really leaving to get my daughter.
i have tried so hard to be positive throughout this process. but i wasn't most of the time. i can put a brave face forward, but i have been in some very dark places over the past 4 years. do i believe those dark days will end once i have Stella home? no. i know i still have lots of work to do. but just for a little while i am going to allow myself to be blissfully and truly happy.
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