to me. yesterday was my 30th birthday. i have to say, i was totally dreading it. for those of you who know me, know that i am a TOTAL planner. always have been. THANKFULLY i actually didn't have a full list of things i wanted to accomplish by the time i was 30. if that had happened i would for sure be in some serious therapy. however, even though i didn't have a complete map to my 30th birthday, this place i'm at in my life is not where i thought i'd be. like i said before, i don't know where that is, but i do know this is not it. i'm not sure why i was so upset about though, because i honestly have SO much to be thankful for :
* i have the best husband EVER.
* i have the best, best friend EVER.
* i have the daughter i have always wanted and the exact one i was meant to have. it is amazing that she came from a place so far away, yet was made just for us.
* i have the best parents EVER.
* i am surrounded by people who genuinely care for me and love me for who i am. (which is a good thing, because trying to be someone/something i am not is just not in my dna.)
* i have a roof over my head and food on my table every single night.
* i have a job that pays our bills.
i could go on and on, but you get the idea. so mid-day yesterday i decided that turning 30 suits me. i figure my 20's i was a mess - well, because you're SUPPOSED to be a mess in your 20's. my 30's are when i will get my s*it together. so, by the time i hit 40 i should be good to go. not that i'm wanting to rush through it all, because this is my LIFE. i only get one. so, i've decided to enjoy the ride, whatever it may be. and since the ride entails turning 30, here i am!